Well, Screw this Weekend

Well Today, sucks. This whole week sucks. Almost everyone this week has been so ARGH! I've wanted to strangle them all. People who normally only slightly annoy me at school, like this girl in a class of mine she always talks so loud in an annoying voice about shit that is so irrelevant she ticks me off. But just today I wanted to turn around and STAB HER. With my scizzor's. No kidding. She was bing extra annoying today though.

Everyone else whoop de flipp'n do. Well I might mention two things. 1) Its my Birthday tomorrow which is gonna suck. Dissapointment after dissapointment. Im over all this. I'm so tempted to go get in the car and just drive, i'd be breaking the law so extra thrill i guess! I dont know what I'd do or where I'd go. But just drive until I ran outta petrol. 2) Theres a party tonight that alot of people I know are invited to and are there but I wasn't. Siobhan even went. I asked the host if i could come and the said no. I'll even quote the txt I've still got it isnt that sad? Its been 3 days and its still like 20 in my inbox. "I told you Sam. It's not because of you. It's Siobhan." and then she said this when i asked her why. "Yeah, well I don't think you are good for Siobhan thats why Siobhan had no say in this." I dont know about you but this person was pissing me off alot about now. What right does she have to tell me that me and my girlfriend arent good for each other! She then effectively told me that in her opinion we should break up. Its none of her business!

I told all this to Siobhan, she claims she try'd to get me invited. I dont think she try'd hard, and then instead of being angry at this person or showing any negitive emotion she went to the party anyway. No we're a couple if you invite me and all our friends you invite Sam aswell. None of that! It wouldnt be so bad if i didnt know people going or anything but I do everyone was talking about it at lunch time. Siobhan even told me she felt like going just to spite me cause i got annoyed. Wouldnt you? I'd never let anyone who called themself a friend treat my gf that way!

Back to point 1) It's my birthday tomorrow and as such I wanted to see my gf but after this I dont know if i will at all. Which is frick'n depressing, I have to go for a walk now, I need to clear my head. How I wish my savior would drive to my house or something.

Oh Darling!

Please believe me,
Il never do you no harm,
Believe me when i tell you I'l never do you no harm. . .


Well what to say? what to say?

Siobhans Back! *Hears Loud Cheers in the background*
I meet her at the Airport gave her flowers and hung out with her at her house, the next day we went for a run. A LONG run by my standards! My legs almost died! And then i came home. Wow that was an interesting blog. I Hope that the next one is slightly better!

My little buttercup!

So i have been doing not alot really. Forgive me if i forget. I spent a day tidying my room! WHOA AMAZING ISNT IT?!

Then today i went to Jellypark with Bob, it was fun even if it was fr-fr-frrr-eeazzzz-iing! Well maybe a slight exadderation! (bloody spelling!) It was not to the point to be satisfactory to the soul. Yes that sounds better! :P Well it was fun! Even though Jacob was to lazy to get there! "No Transport" WTH Jacob! You live in addington you have about 3 bus routes near your house! One is even the orbiter! It goes right past Jellypark. Lazy boy! Oh well we had fun without him. Arguing over who was the best looking tree and eating the youthworkers collectives lunch! Mmmm Noodle salad! We went down the slide once and spent maybe 10mins in the pool? It was quite cold! Bob and i should've gone to the gym there even though it looked puny next to the Les Mills i went to with Siobhan for RPM those two times.

What else. . . . I stayed at Siobhans house and we watched Healter Skalter.(?) It was freaky based on a true story. . . Not funny at all, I couldnt understand why anyone would ever do that to anyone else! Especially when they didnt even know them! It was sick.

Thats been about it. Oh i got slightly sunburnt at the church shared lunch! I should've put sunblock on, but i didnt think! There was a severe lack of drinks as usual. . . It was fun though.

Well until next time! TTFN!

The end lingers. . .

One more day of proper school for this year! then off on Holidays! during which im going to become an amazing drummer! :P

This picture is from Friday, Let me introduce the V-Dairy Challange. Nick and I dicided that we would take a piture of the dairy everytime new graffeti appeared on it. This is Day one of the Challange. Nick is in the picture to prove that it really is Graffeti Free. Every Sunday if theres new Graffetti im gonna take a picture and keep a track of it here, and my bebo. Just thought it'd be interesting!

Well yes back to the important stuff! On friday was Fiesta, it was fun. . . Meh. I guess. It was hard though. People being people and different around other people.

"Playing Ping-Pong Over Oceans, Messing with Emotions. Messing with My Head."

We went to the park cause the actual Fiesta got a bit tedious. The park was fun. Looked at clouds. . . Left people to there lonesome. It was fun. Talked with others discussed somethings. Then we left and walked around the park to sneak in and see what those people were up to. . . All commando like! :P

It wasnt entirely horrible. . . Made me feel a bit meh. Cause some people were acting ways that confused me and made me stressed. But Jo gave me a girls perspective on it which made me feel a little better.

Then i walked back with Young Nick to his house to watch Pulp Sport! and then we let off some of Matts homemade skyrockets! They made huge bangs! and he kinda explained how to make them so iv got to try it :P

Then on Saturday i meet Jonny, and Bob in town Andrew was supposed to come but we have no idea what was going on there cause he never showed up! So we hung out with out him i got Nick his Birthday present. Cheap Trick Greatest hits, and i bought Elemeno P - Love and Disrespect and GoodNight Nurse - Keep Me On Your Side! We hung out walking around town, We went to Pennylane the best cd store in CHCH. Its cool, like Real Greedy just everythings $5 cheaper!

Then at 4.30ish they went home and i ran to laserstrike! For Nicks Party! And OMG Laserstrike is completly different! so cool though. And i used my upgrades to buy better sheilds and stuff. So i was a bit better. . . I got a decent score i thought. The Guy that won got most trigger happy and but he cheated he'd cover up the laser so you couldnt shot him! It was quite exciting! :)

Then i went to GoodNight Nurse with Siobhan and Kristin it was fun! we played pool and moshed! Except one girl infront off us stunk the whole room out . . . She smelt worse than a tent full of un-showered boys at eastercamp! I got GGN to sign my CD which was neat! :) It was a good weekend. Even if i couldnt sleep and i was up to like 2am! :P

HellO!

Well,
Today i helped my dad Dj at Puroa Street School (i think that's what its called) and man it was weird. It was Halloween theme of course it being weeny at the tonight. I was Dressed as a vampire, Dreadlocks and all! :P Man the kids there were mean! They just yelled and one girl said she was going to kick me in the butt! Oh the Violence! Just cause I didn't let her hold the end of the limbo stick. Which to be honest they were completely USE-less at! It made me laugh. I could've gone lower and i was like twice there height. So that made me laugh!

It was fun though, well bets sitting at home doing nothing! Except of all the requests that were made only one was an actual song! The rest were crap! Man proof that Hip-Hop is completely commercialised when Fendalton Kids are requesting them!

Well, now iv just had a large 2x Cheeseburger Combo from McDonalds so I now have no will to sleep for another hour! YAH!!!

Man im confused at the moment. Siobhan, doesnt tell me what im doing to annoy her for ages and i wish she would tell me sooner. Im sorry for being so annoying! But if i dnt know what im doing i can't stop! Surely you must see the wisdom in telling me these things Snugs?

Well yes tomorrow will be interesting! I dont know what might go down. Probly lots of things, I hope though that nothing to bad happens at the Sleep over. I hope people dont do stupid things, I hope I get awnsers. . . Iv been being told for half a week now that is were we'll discus things, so maybe there il get awnsers. . . Maybe everything can change, and we can fix things. MEH!

But who know's? I can only hope and Pray.

Life.

Life,

Whoa. It's wierd. You do something, you thought you wanted. And now its terrible. I dont want to make that mistake again. I do want to do it again. Just not like that. It just felt completely wrong. And im sure everyone knows what i mean. Even though only one person will know what im on about! :P

Im sorry.

My parents are acting really wierd. Since they heard that Siobhan and i have broken up. My Dad asked me awkward questions. . . Ones i dont have the awnsers to, ones i dont want to think about. Like "Does Siobhan have another Boyfriend?" and "Does she have lots a boys chasing her?" The awnsers, No, and most definatly. He seems to think im handling it very well. But he doesnt know bout the mistakes iv made, or the habits iv developed. He asked me if i was angry at Siobhan. I had thought i wasnt, but yes I am. Actually when i think about it. I'm hurt, and Angry. Theres things I did wrong, Theres things she did wrong. Im angry at the way it's worked out. Im angry at her for the way she treats me. I'm angry.

My Mum i think, is actually being quite horrible about it. I dont think she means to be. I think she's trying to be funny or something. But the comments she makes arent funny. I didnt really need her to tell me that if i ever needed a date i could take her. Wouldnt that be a disaster. . . And horrible. :P maybe some of the things she say's is funny!

I do feel hurt, i feel betrayed. People say wait and it'l work itself out. I want to, but i dont know. . . I'm not sure anymore. I used to be. Now im not sure, she said i scare her when im Angry. She scares me when she's angry.

I dont think she's allowed to be angry at me at the moment though. I didnt do anything to her, nothing like what she did do me. She broke up with me. NOT the other way around. So yes im angry. Maybe thats why it felt so wrong?

Just a thought. I do still want it to feel right again. Im confused. Conflicting feelings, Positive over negitive and confusion. This is Stupid. SO SO stupid. and know i wont type it three times. It looks kinda over dramatic. Although i still support three dots. . .

I can't stop doing everything i used to, but i can fight habits, i can break them. I will stop them. I wont be pathetic. I will hold on just not tightly. I dont need, i just want. I can survive without.

I do need my friends. I do need them. I do need my best friends. I do need my BBF. I would like my GF. But i do not need her. Man this is conflicting. . .

I hope nothing bad happens. I dont need anymore of this confusion. Unless its resolving sorta confusion... Which i guess is kinda awkward oxymoron kinda stuff. When i feel better i'l put pictures back on the page. Thank you to the people that'dv talked to me, through txt or, msn or, bebo messaging. :) I am listening and i appreciate the advice. and amazingly your all right, and your all saying the same thing. So here's to our plan.

P.S. if it goes to custurd i blame you.

P.P.S Im only joking!

High Cascade!!!

Hello!!!!

Ok, so my Life was a bit rough last week, but it's gotten better. It's not perfect. But nothing ever is. I need to get my restricted soon. And i REALLY need to get more sleep! Im so tired. I havnt gone to sleep before midnight (except thursday when i fell asleep on Siobhans bed while she read. . .) but other than that night iv stay'd up late every night! Especially camp. BLOODY ANNOYING AUSSIES! Nah some of them are awsome. :) But man so are annoying when your trying to get to sleep!

It was great at camp though everyone was awsome. Except Annie the anal Aussie who just did not want anyone to have fun or to be nice to anyone! She was nuts. And not in the good Shazza kinda way! :P (Shazza or Sharon was one of the coaches she was pretty ecstatic all the time! (Like whoa whats she taking. . . And where can i get some?!)) The coaches were awsome, some from USA, one from Aussie, one from chch and my coach Beaven Hall who owned the mountain. He knew absolutly everyone! it was nutz!

Im so going back next year, anyone whos ever wanted to learn how to shred should go to a HighCascade camp. The people, the coaches, the free stuff! All awsome! and the foods not too bad. Better than i exspected anyway.

Well camps made me decided im gonna learn to skateboard. Seeing as you can do that all year and not snowboard. :(

Im considering going on an exchange, like during our summer so i can board more! YAH!!!

I <3>

Im getting a highlight video off camp, so il try to put that on my bebo at some point

http://www.bebo.com/Rock_Rocks_Socks

Well Im tired. So i should sleep! Good night world. Sleep well. I miss some of you! I'm better than last week :)

Thank You.

Back from camp.

Camp was awsome.
But this week has been hell. . .
I hate everything. I want to cry. I hurt. I'm lonely. I hate this.
FFFFFUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somebody kill me.

And i had a bethany pulled on me. . . not a major one
but still

Kill me. NOW! If you loved me you would.

I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT!!!

I was having a great week. missing Siobhan and every one else. On wednesday i got dumped. I managed to hold it together. But now im crashing. I had a question bugging me and i got a truthful awnser but its not the one i wanted.

FUCK!!!

I need someone to talk to. . . But i feel like i got nobody that'd understand. . .

I thought it was going so well. . . Sure it wasnt perfect but perfects only in movies.

I want to be horrible. I want to forgive. I want to kill. Somebody shot me. . .
I want to bet you up. I want you to hold me and tell me it was all a nightmare.

This is Life. It sucks. It sucks hard.

What do you do when all your enemies are friends?

Hello!!! the title so yah know is cause im listening to Monkey Wrench atm. It couldv been its the end of the world as you know it a few minutes ago. Some how i think thats more apropriete at this moment of time. . .

Im Nervous, OPC trials tomorrow. Now i dnt think im fat but next to the Atheletes that are trialling next to me im a Mr. Colossus.

Things, people are stressing me. Mixed emotions. Confused. Pain. Hurt. But yes i know im bing Cryptic but thats the mood im in atm.

You ever had a song that suits your day? I can't think of one for today. . . Maybe Better days. But atm it needs to be a song that starts of fine and happy. Then declines into a depressing slomp of nothing-ness. Blackbox may be appropriete for latter. Who knows. I might just be like woah! But i think il be better.

btw this post has been written over two days.

Hm. . . Now think it could maybe be Takes a Radical. by Elemeno P. but i dnt know! MAybe not at all actually now that i think about it. I hate not knowing my days perfect song! Its like the guy in Definatly Maybe said. . . Its an extreme joy to know your song.

Well any how tomorrow is talk like a Pirate day! so Arrrr Me Arty's! :P Arrrr!!!

Well i should sleep.

Said we,

had time for a holiday,

Turns out I think to much,

Such Precious things dont go away,

And i will Wait my Love

Said we,

had time for a holiday

turns out I work to much,

Such Precious things dont go away,

And i will wait My Love

You are,

My Shining Star,

You are,

My Cavier

You are

My tonic lets get on it Lady. . . .

And you should know the rest. ;)

ARGH!!!!

IM SO ANNOYED!!!

My stupid little brother keeps trying to go on my Drums! there are many reasons i dont want him to.

1) He used a hammer on them once

2) He's only doing it to annoy me

3) I dont go in his instruments

4) He doesnt hit the drums right he damages the skins!

5) He's a git that i can't stand so why would i let him use anything of mine?!?! Espeshially as he doesnt ask!

6) I just dont like him

7) I dont like people touching my stuff if they dont know how to use them.

8) When he's gone on the before he's moved everything!

9) I hate my brother.

10) He's sone on before and broken 2 sets of MY drumsticks.

Im sick of my brother.

Im sick of my family! Why can't my parents understand i dont want him touching my stuff!!! I dont go touch there stuff or play there instruments!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I cant deal with this extra stress iv got a bloody maths exam!!! on thursday!!! (btw im allowed to say bloody i do history)

Anyway now that this is the third time since the weekend i probly should tell you bout the awsomeness.

On Saturday i went to Ticketek (ticket-ek?) (ticket-tek?) to buy tickets to go to the Smokefree Retro gig thingy. It was WICKKED!!!

Performing were;

Anika Moa,

Elemeno P,

OpShop,

Evermore,

Anna Coddington,

Autozamm,

Minuit,

Goodnight Nurse

They played in the order of who ever was in rockquest most recently so first was Beneath the Silence cause they won the night before. I liked them but its not my cup of tea. but Man!

GOOD NIGHT NURSE AND ELEMENO P they were awsome!!!!!!!!

I knew all the words to most of there songs and it was great fun! Their wasnt many people there.

ElemenoP played my favourite song! Louder Louder! Its off there new album and they just released it as a single on Sunday? i think but i know all the words so i sung it and it made me super de duper happy! And then i stayd at Siobhans housey but then i got sick so on Sunday my Mummy had to come and pick me up. And i went home but it was a good weekend.

TTYL!!!

Been a While

HELLO!!!


Well its been a while!

<---Like the Pic<---

I found out my phone could do this Snazzy trick a few days ago neat isnt it just?

Well what have i got up to? Well i went to Hutt on friday which was awsome i went on some harder trails Siobhan came two and got some lessons. In the Holidays u am officially going to SNOWBOARDING CAMP!!! Ye-AH! :P Tis going to be awsome fun. Snowboarding for a week getting taught to do things properly and better. :) gonna be so much fun!

I have discovered another pet hate over the last few days and it is Fur lined Jackets. I mean those ones that just have fur edging it looks AWWWW-ful. Like seriously. If it was real fur maybe it could look maybe ok. But those cheap jackets from like Glassons or Supre or where ever! COME ON GIRLS GET SOME STYLE!!!

Another Pet hate which would make me a hypercrite cause a few years ago it just wear anything is people who cant present them selves well! In my opinion some people need to get some decent clothes others need a haircut. It doesnt effect them as a person it's just come on! Have some pride! And if theres something that you dnt like about yourself that is sensible (eg Bad haircut) (Not like Skinny Girls who believe they're Fat!) Change it!!! Go to a Hair dressers, Find a friend that dresses well and chooses there own clothes and get them to help you shop. Do some exercise to get a nicer bum! Who knows what you want to change.

Atm my computers going all bizarre. It does this every now and again i guess leaving them on for weeks at a time and not shutting them down at all takes its toll. Must need to recharge its battery every now and again.

Last week i went to my Girlfriends party. It was ok. . . Sept it was lots of girls but that was my fault seeing as i asked to be invited knowing that. Man choosing movies was a task tho! It took them more than half an hour! It was rediculous! NEVER choose movies with a dozen girls!

At the moment im watching the Olympic's some of those Athlets are Ugly! Like serious they mustv been beaten with the ugly stick every day as children. But saying that there are some good looking Athletes (<-- thats a word i cant spell) Me and Siobhan are gonna start a list if you know any tell me about em?

Well im gonna go goggling!

TTFN!!!

Yummy!

Yummy!

Fudge!

Anyhow! To the Post! I got this yummy picture of Fudge because my B-E-A-UTE-I-FULL gf gave me a picture today and it reminds me of what it says on those supre shorts that she was trying on. :P If you could call them Shorts!

Man, Supre encouraging perverts and selling ever shrinking clothes to young whores since 1984!

Not that theres anything bad with Supre, its just some, naaah (sound a horsey makes!) ALOT of there clothes are incredibly rip off! i cant believe pay for that rubbish! I dont know, but if i was a girl id avoid Supre. . . Like many of the Sensible Girls i know! Id shop at Lippy. . . :P i like Tripp clothes they'r quite "sweet as bro".

Yes i did spend a day shopping with 4 girls on sunday! how could you of not figured that out already?! :P All i wanted was i nice pair of regular Boot cut style jeans! I didnt find any though wich was a huge shame! admittedly i didnt look thaaaaaat hard. . . But none really jumped up and bit me! And they're so espensive! I mean "Lyk WOAH!" $180+ for popular brands! Although i did see some i would consider that were $130. . . but still! Anyhow the shopping! I never knew there were so many shops in the Palms!!! And we visited them all it seemed! And they tryd lots on! Speshilly the Gorgeous and Talented. . . (drum roll) . . . . Siobhan! But it took ages! At one point Mihi T (Siobhan's home stay Mihimana's Tahitian friend whos also on an exchange) was in a changing room so i mimed taking her cloths that she'd put over the door, and Mihimana actually took them! the Sqeaul was priceless! (unlike the jeans i was looking at!) :P So so so funny! And then Siobhan try'd on lots of dress's in Lippy and those shorts as a joke in Supre.

Supre tis French for Slut!

Sadly its not but it sounds believable!

Do you ever get that feeling when your doing something that you really should be doing your history homework? No? Just me then! I hate homework. . . When im Prime minister im gonna Ban Homework!

I have refound my Love! GINGERBEER!!! Drink of the God's!!! Any how im gonna stop the mucking around and get down and dirty arms deep in homework!

I hope your having a better "Surf" than me and i hope this post agrees with your high Praise Roseanna :P