Get used to your own Company.

A while ago I wrote a blog, about a quote I heard from a famous doctor. I said how it was sad that such a quote was said. The quote went something like "Get used to your own company, your going to spend alot of time with yourself." although don't quote me on that. At the time I thought it was one of the most depressing statements I'd ever heard. I couldn't believe that the doctor that wrote it also wrote one of my favourite childhood books about breakfast foods and eating on the move.Dr Seuss I though how could you have let me down like that?
Well over the last however long since that post I've been alone alot. I've been thinking about that statement. Not directly but under different headings. Like what should I do then? Why did I do that? My favourite is WTF did you say that you must've looked like a retard. All this has been while I've been alone which is a fair bit. My house is a little in the wop wops, so I have a minimum of half an hour driving a day where I'm alone, most days I have something else on so the driving times even longer. Or sitting in my room with my music going, pretending/avoiding doing homework and wasting my life away. I even started another campaign on Rome Total War. I only seem to do that when I'm really bored. It's depressing because you can never actually conquer everything, not with out more patience than I can muster. However back to the point.
You need to get used to your own company, I seem to have a mixed relationship with myself. You know how theres those things you like about yourself or the few things that boost your confidence, then theres things you don't like or sensitive about. One of those things was last week in the library a girl told me her friend liked me. I was shocked at the time, and because they were yr 7 it weirded me out a bit. However it was nice to be thought of even if that one girl was trying to embarrass her friend that I was good looking enough? to make the 12yr old blush.
As I said earlier the reflections on actions like why I did that, why'd you say that? Or you could do that. Are these the normal conversations one has in there head when there alone? Do people even have conversations in there head? cause then that'd imply two parties? Am I nuts? Or am i just getting used to my own company and forming my own quirky type relationship with me?
Ultimately am I used to being by myself? That's probably the worst thing for me about driving, all that freedom to go where I want. You just have to drive there, and theres no one to go with but me myself an I. Sometimes I cant stand me, or I, definitely not myself he's a bit of a douche.

Well, Screw this Weekend

Well Today, sucks. This whole week sucks. Almost everyone this week has been so ARGH! I've wanted to strangle them all. People who normally only slightly annoy me at school, like this girl in a class of mine she always talks so loud in an annoying voice about shit that is so irrelevant she ticks me off. But just today I wanted to turn around and STAB HER. With my scizzor's. No kidding. She was bing extra annoying today though.

Everyone else whoop de flipp'n do. Well I might mention two things. 1) Its my Birthday tomorrow which is gonna suck. Dissapointment after dissapointment. Im over all this. I'm so tempted to go get in the car and just drive, i'd be breaking the law so extra thrill i guess! I dont know what I'd do or where I'd go. But just drive until I ran outta petrol. 2) Theres a party tonight that alot of people I know are invited to and are there but I wasn't. Siobhan even went. I asked the host if i could come and the said no. I'll even quote the txt I've still got it isnt that sad? Its been 3 days and its still like 20 in my inbox. "I told you Sam. It's not because of you. It's Siobhan." and then she said this when i asked her why. "Yeah, well I don't think you are good for Siobhan thats why Siobhan had no say in this." I dont know about you but this person was pissing me off alot about now. What right does she have to tell me that me and my girlfriend arent good for each other! She then effectively told me that in her opinion we should break up. Its none of her business!

I told all this to Siobhan, she claims she try'd to get me invited. I dont think she try'd hard, and then instead of being angry at this person or showing any negitive emotion she went to the party anyway. No we're a couple if you invite me and all our friends you invite Sam aswell. None of that! It wouldnt be so bad if i didnt know people going or anything but I do everyone was talking about it at lunch time. Siobhan even told me she felt like going just to spite me cause i got annoyed. Wouldnt you? I'd never let anyone who called themself a friend treat my gf that way!

Back to point 1) It's my birthday tomorrow and as such I wanted to see my gf but after this I dont know if i will at all. Which is frick'n depressing, I have to go for a walk now, I need to clear my head. How I wish my savior would drive to my house or something.