My little buttercup!

So i have been doing not alot really. Forgive me if i forget. I spent a day tidying my room! WHOA AMAZING ISNT IT?!

Then today i went to Jellypark with Bob, it was fun even if it was fr-fr-frrr-eeazzzz-iing! Well maybe a slight exadderation! (bloody spelling!) It was not to the point to be satisfactory to the soul. Yes that sounds better! :P Well it was fun! Even though Jacob was to lazy to get there! "No Transport" WTH Jacob! You live in addington you have about 3 bus routes near your house! One is even the orbiter! It goes right past Jellypark. Lazy boy! Oh well we had fun without him. Arguing over who was the best looking tree and eating the youthworkers collectives lunch! Mmmm Noodle salad! We went down the slide once and spent maybe 10mins in the pool? It was quite cold! Bob and i should've gone to the gym there even though it looked puny next to the Les Mills i went to with Siobhan for RPM those two times.

What else. . . . I stayed at Siobhans house and we watched Healter Skalter.(?) It was freaky based on a true story. . . Not funny at all, I couldnt understand why anyone would ever do that to anyone else! Especially when they didnt even know them! It was sick.

Thats been about it. Oh i got slightly sunburnt at the church shared lunch! I should've put sunblock on, but i didnt think! There was a severe lack of drinks as usual. . . It was fun though.

Well until next time! TTFN!

Good bye! Powering off. . .

"Good bye! Powering off. . ."
This is what my phone said to me as i looked at it dispairingly. I dont know completly how to feel. I feel numb. It's a strange feeling. Sometimes i feel hurt, like now as i type this. Other times i feel happy like last night. :) Most the time now though i feel numb. I dont really feel like doing anything. And the stress from exams doesnt help!!! Im gonna go study tomorrow if i can get up in time. I need some early nights. . . Yes tomorrow a WHOLE day studying! doesnt that just sound dreadful? I think my brain will explode. But i really need to study maths and to study history. . .

Argh!!!

Im mega tired. . . so i hope i don't make to many errors.

What have i been up to you wonder?
Well iv spent two and a half days studying at my mummys work! Full days like 7-8hrs of hard studying. I have also done a english exam (went terribly i think :( ) and a economic's exam which was a walk in the park on a summers day, if i do say so my self! I have more exams coming up so im a bit stressed at the moment. I went to the Gym yesterday with Siobhan, and she was right it is fun! But i was smelly afterwards. She was wrong though about looking completly disgusting afterwards!

Whats going on in my life?
Lot's Exams, Relationships, tiredness! Exam's ARGH!!!! Relationships, meh!!! People can be painful, and it hurts :(. Some people are sad and thats no good. Others i dont know, its just wierd hanging with them. Maybe some of thats cause i feel so numb? Im not sure. I miss some things. The way they used to be. Even though there were many things wrong. I wish it could be fixed. I hate things that have happened.

Right now?
Im wishing i didnt send those last to txts. . . Im not sure if i can deal with the truth. Its going to hurt me. Heres the reply now. . . *deep breath* FUDGE. Yes well that wasnt what i expected. . . Nor was it what id hoped for though.

Im sooo tired. I might try and go to sleep. Good night peoples. Pray for better days! Pray for happiness, Pray for an end to all this confusion. Pray for People who you Love. Pray. . .

:)