Letter to a much younger me.

Lately I've been think about things I have learned. Not like learned in school but life things, things I wish I'd known when I was younger. So I decided I'd write myself a letter.

Dear Younger Sam,
Don't worry everything will be cool. Listen to more music, and remember just cause you don't like a band doesn't mean no one else should.
Play Canoe Polo as soon as you can. It's epic and you don't want to only play it for school in your last year!
Remember your friends, remember and the lyrics "Your best friend is not your girlfriend."
Don't waste so much money on junk food. Watch out for girls, the can rock your world to ruin. Look out for one called Tash.
Ignore your dad's teasing it is possibly, healthy even to have girls that are friends.
Study more, be a girly swat, more badges will look nice on your blazer.
Don't give up on soccer, after all your friends leave Halswell you should have tried Rolleston.
Get your licence earlier it will give you so much more freedom and free time. You wouldn't have had to waste so much time on the bus getting across town.
Trial for every team you would like to get into even if its a long shot its worth the experience! Do the subjects at school you enjoy not just the ones your good at. Remember accounting is boring, do bio instead.
Don't bother doing archery, you'll hate it.
Statistics is not maths don't bother doing it, do calculus if you can.
Don't pass up any opportunities for adventure. Remember it is better to regret doing something than not doing it. (Within reason).
Video games are not a productive pass time, try to do something else.
Start learning drums sooner rather than later so that you have some kind of mastery when you get to an age where you care about that sort of thing.
Read instructions for tests and assignments, so you don't miss out on merit credits that would get you an endorsement!!!
Have fun you Muppet and don't be such a patsy!

Yours Sincerely
Older and hopefully some what more enlightened Sam.

I wonder if that note would have changed anything? Even if I wouldn't have understood any of it straight away.

Hanmer, And Sound day!

Look at me going through a river!
Up the Skree Slope

We made it to the top of the Skree

Me going up the Skree (again)

Did anyone say mud?

Yes Mud and LOTS of it TOO

More MUD!

Well Its been along time! All those photo's are from my time in hanmer i was there for a week with my family and my Dad, brother and I went quad biking!!! It was mightily epic. But apart from that we didnt do much else worth mentioning there. Just getting lost while mountain biking and going to the hot pools!

Sound Day on the other hand was pretty sweet. I must'v looked pretty awsome being one of 2 guys with four girls! :P Oh yeah! ;) Well Kristin invited me and i was supposed to invite guys and i did just none could make it except Andrew who was intived by Julia. So the people there were Kristin, Jo, Julia, Roseanna, Andrew and Myself! Pictures i have no doubt will be on kristins Bebo with in the next few days. :P It was fun although we didnt really listen to the bands that much which were Fat Freddys Drop and we left during the last band Cut Off Your Hands. We kinda left Andrew after he left us with out saying where he was going and we spent ages trying to find him! So we went and got BURGERKING FOR TEA! Jo gave me her Crown so now i have it still on my Lamp in my bedroom where i keep my hats! :P Well thats about it i guess! ttfn

Life.

Life,

Whoa. It's wierd. You do something, you thought you wanted. And now its terrible. I dont want to make that mistake again. I do want to do it again. Just not like that. It just felt completely wrong. And im sure everyone knows what i mean. Even though only one person will know what im on about! :P

Im sorry.

My parents are acting really wierd. Since they heard that Siobhan and i have broken up. My Dad asked me awkward questions. . . Ones i dont have the awnsers to, ones i dont want to think about. Like "Does Siobhan have another Boyfriend?" and "Does she have lots a boys chasing her?" The awnsers, No, and most definatly. He seems to think im handling it very well. But he doesnt know bout the mistakes iv made, or the habits iv developed. He asked me if i was angry at Siobhan. I had thought i wasnt, but yes I am. Actually when i think about it. I'm hurt, and Angry. Theres things I did wrong, Theres things she did wrong. Im angry at the way it's worked out. Im angry at her for the way she treats me. I'm angry.

My Mum i think, is actually being quite horrible about it. I dont think she means to be. I think she's trying to be funny or something. But the comments she makes arent funny. I didnt really need her to tell me that if i ever needed a date i could take her. Wouldnt that be a disaster. . . And horrible. :P maybe some of the things she say's is funny!

I do feel hurt, i feel betrayed. People say wait and it'l work itself out. I want to, but i dont know. . . I'm not sure anymore. I used to be. Now im not sure, she said i scare her when im Angry. She scares me when she's angry.

I dont think she's allowed to be angry at me at the moment though. I didnt do anything to her, nothing like what she did do me. She broke up with me. NOT the other way around. So yes im angry. Maybe thats why it felt so wrong?

Just a thought. I do still want it to feel right again. Im confused. Conflicting feelings, Positive over negitive and confusion. This is Stupid. SO SO stupid. and know i wont type it three times. It looks kinda over dramatic. Although i still support three dots. . .

I can't stop doing everything i used to, but i can fight habits, i can break them. I will stop them. I wont be pathetic. I will hold on just not tightly. I dont need, i just want. I can survive without.

I do need my friends. I do need them. I do need my best friends. I do need my BBF. I would like my GF. But i do not need her. Man this is conflicting. . .

I hope nothing bad happens. I dont need anymore of this confusion. Unless its resolving sorta confusion... Which i guess is kinda awkward oxymoron kinda stuff. When i feel better i'l put pictures back on the page. Thank you to the people that'dv talked to me, through txt or, msn or, bebo messaging. :) I am listening and i appreciate the advice. and amazingly your all right, and your all saying the same thing. So here's to our plan.

P.S. if it goes to custurd i blame you.

P.P.S Im only joking!

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Well, this is interesting, i am Sam, hence Sam i am. I do not like green eggs in ham, but that is because i havnt tried them. Provided the green eggs are free range of course.
Well im Sam, I play Tribal wars, Ikariam and started playing blackout rugby even though i think rugby is a silly sport.
I go to school but i wont mention where cause you never know who could be watching... and if i said my school name people looking for me would be able to find me. . . Im ok at school, im in the 2nd Maths and Science classes, 4th English though (not the hottest subject). I also do Economics, Accounting, History (actually my funnest subject) and biblical studies (because my school makes me). All in all schools interesting except for english and Biblical studies, both of wich, not to sound snobby or any thing im alot smarter than most of the class, top 2 or 3 id say. Well it's probly my own fault really, cause im to shy and dont ask questions on the rare occasions that i dnt get things. Omgosh i think a reader may be getting the wrong idea about me if they'd read up to here, but oh well!
I have my own group of friends, we call ourselves the circle and joke about us becoming a cult. We just hang out at school, and youthgroup and the such.

Alway's wear sunblock. I say this just now because last time i went out in the sun i came back with a rather burned nose thats been pealing for the last week. Yes cringe in disgust. But remember your sunblock.