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So grades are out, not as amazing as I would've liked but sadly what I probably deserve. Lesson LEARN STUFF IN THE SEMESTER! Don't give up, get distracted, try and chase girls. Waste of time, especially if by some divine power you continue on your course of only chasing messed up ones!

My grades weren't so bad for me to curl up wishing to disappear, but when one needs an atleast an A- average combined with an aced UMAT score to get into there desired second year course a B, two B+'s and an A just doesn't quite cut the mustard. My average as it stands is a B+ Which with some luck and hard study I should be able to bump up. If I can survive, stay focused and not get distracted. This means, no staying up late during semester, no going to town, no drinking, no wasting time on girls, but hey I'm a fresher so that's never going to happen! All I can do is try my best and that's what I plan on doing.

My Plans

Last day of my holidays, before going to school for my second to last term ever. Scary when I think of it like that. Over these holidays and the weeks before it I have made some major decisions. I'm pretty happy about them. I know roughly have a 10yr plan. Not sure how that will fan out seeing as I can't keep with 1 month plans, or even plans I make for the morning!

The plan as it stands is, Finish school. Work hard in chemistry, work harder in economic's star course to bring my pass marks up to >80% (currently they're probably in late 60's early 70's).
Year 1 Go to university. Most likely Otago.
Year 1-6 Work hard. Become a doctor.
Year 7 Do my elective overseas somewhere that would need a doctor, somewhere I probably would never get the chance to work or go.
Year 7-8 Locum for a while. (Provided I don't get tied down anywhere) Pay of student loans, etc and save money.
Year 9-10 Travel the world see everything that there is to see with the money I have saved, hopefully may have found somewhere I want to live by the end of it.

As of right now that is how my 10 year plan stands. I think the possible beauty of this plan is that although it has some fixed routes, it is open for so much deviation. So many forseeable and unforseeable things could come along, leave, dance about, mess things around, and the bare bones of this plan would remain unchanged.
I can see the genius of finishing university before I explore the world, having money would mean I could explore more places, for longer, have a much wider experience and be a lot more able to cope with a disaster. Than say I went next year. Of course I am somewhat lucky having made a decision about what I want to do.

The other part I like about my plans, is that they are mine. I have come up with them for the most part. I have talked about them with my parents, my Oma some people from church various family friends. They all agree that I can achieve them which is a lot more encouraging than the laughs of the girl from school, which when I heard them cut deep. I thought friends are supposed to support each others dreams, not laugh at them. Perhaps she was just teasing, or thought I wasn't being serious. Who knows, does it really matter anymore? No.

I am an Individual, I can forge my own path in this world. I can do it with some people or without them. The only person that truely matters in my lifes plans anymore is me.
Love is a mutt from hell that I can't live without but I'm sure I can cope without if need be.

This plan is mine, for my life. I'm certain it is the first plan that I have had in atleast 4 and a half years, that is just for me. Every other one has involved someone else, been for them to succeed. Now I can make my own plans. I don't have to concern myself with her dreams, I can begin to have my own again. Now they can be mine, rather than my dreams being for her dreams to succeed. So thank you to her, and I hope all her dreams become true.

PS The picture is just of some of the things I found in my car today when I was cleaning it, thought I'd blog about them but the blog panned out differently. :)

Actual Audience

For today the random Adjective noun generator has spat out this wonderful combo. There were others that it told me but they seemed dodgy and didnt inspire anything amazing, this phrase isnt really either. But it'll allow me to explain my plan to my Actual Audience!

It is that everyday after i do my various internet things ie. Cafe world, Dino rpg etc. I will hit the Random Adjective Noun generator at http://creativityforyou.com/combomaker.html and blog. This is my plan which will hopefully lead to many posts, hopefully daily. As you can see from my post before this one and the one before that, will be a huge change from the past! Hopefully will lead to excitement. I also plan to try and find some other things to do blogs on some days shout out if you know any. I know some of my friends do a themed thursday but they're all better writers than me and i dont really want to copy! but maybe I shall!

School, Calculus and Un-birthdays!

Well it's been a busy week, and i can safely say that for a whole too days my plans worked incredibly well. Of course I'm keeping to them but the rules I set in place have begun to get bent. Like turning my computer of during the day. The reason stop me wasting my afternoon on the net. I didn't turn it off, the reason I had school work on it.
I did let my school work catch up on me by not studying for a calculus test and not doing a presentation until 11.30 the night before it was due (and finishing it off in computer that morning).

Although now to the weekend! It was Bob's Birthday on Friday, and Siobhan's is right now (well started 40ish Min's ago). They're both good friend so what they decided to do was have a un birthday party on the one day between there too birthdays! It was great fun, apart from the hours i spent wondering round town on my lonesome because I left home early to go birthday present shopping. Which as it happened to mean me buying myself a few Cd's. xD

Anyhow that un birthday was wicked fun. We had a picnic went to a good b grade movie drunk lots of suger filled beverages and tonnes of artificially coloured lollies!!! Everything that makes a good party! and there was great sausage rolls to top it all off! THERE WAS EVEN TOMATO SAUCE, BECAUSE JACOB REMEMBERED IT BECAUSE HE'S AWESOME LIKE THAT! (The intensity was for Jacob, he told everyone about the tomato sauce a number of times and with more than enough emphasis and repetition to warrant CAPITALS!)

Anyway all the birthday stuff and the b grade movie got me thinking, apart from the usual gift givers panic i suffered! I'm sure everyone knows what I mean. The whole will they like this? Do they still like that brand? or band? It got me thinking about birthdays, and my birthday which is in two weeks yesterday! I was looking at my friends with a sort of quiet envy of I hope my birthdays this awesome. . . With so many people. But its all just a small thing in the long run.

Oh and if anyone see's my parents tell the the Metal Gear Solid XBOX360 Pack is a great birthday present ;)

New Sam; GOALS

Well, I have been thinking, mowing lawns is very therapeutic. . . I've decided I am lazy. I know I am, it's by choice too. I can quite easily sit down on the computer and waste away hours, i did it almost all of yesterday. This happens especially when I've planed my day. For example yesterday i decided I'd get up, wash my dad's car, was my car, and maybe mow the lawns then go to the movies with friends using the lawn money, go home do maths homework and economics's.

What actually happened is as follows; Woke up, looked at the time, went back to sleep, got up an hour later, go on computer for 1 and 1/2 hours, go to have a shower, no hot water, go back to room, go on computer, decide to risk cold shower, become very awake, go back to computer, go downstairs, watch tv, computer, then ask for a ride, raid my money box til empty to just get enough money to pay for the movies, wait for mum to take me the bus stop (I have a car but I can't actually drive it legally by myself yet. . . ) get to the movies late, hung out at the mall with almost no money for 30mins, bused home, watched television.

On reflection that was a huge waste of a day, i achieved nothing! From now on this changes I will set myself goals. With this blog as my witness i will stick to them! I will update the blog regularly to keep me accountable, say at least once a week.

So today I thought as I mowed the lawns (on a ride on) between the mindless honing and mowing figure of 8's; of a few goals I need.

1. Get Fit; Seems simple but every good goal needs ways to complete it. I'm not horribly unfit, but i would like to be fit for health reasons, be able to keep up with my gf (she's quite athletic) And as a sub-goal as I've probably left it far to late due to my problem to get into the OPC team. To do this I will go to the trainings on Tuesday mornings, drink more water, restart doing the 100 push ups challenge, go to the weights room and go for runs (perhaps get up early to do it?).
   
2. Study and do Homework; As being a lazy teenager I don't do a lot, and one of those things I don't do is my homework. I've done maths homework maybe 3 times this year other subjects only when it's been important or when teachers have being nagging. I want to get it done so now on I will do it! And whats more, I will study. I have 80 more credits this year, that with effort I could get excellences, to get the excellence endorsement. I want to get it this year. I don't understand algebra so I must get out my text book and study it. I think maybe I should turn my computer off before school and not turn it on until after I've done homework and study, and if it requires a computer do that last.
3. Read More; I like reading, but when I'm between books I don't. Not because i don't want to just I've got nothing to read so I don't. I don't actively seek new books to read either I need to start doing this. To fix this I shall go to the library, the school one, and get one for the city library's (my old one ran out).
4. Get my drivers license!; I'm 17 in 3 weeks, I could have my full by now, I've had my learners for over a year. I need to get the next step up at least! This one I want to complete by the end of the month. So what shall I do? Get the Fiat serviced. Practise driving everywhere I can. Book my Restricted test for before the 31st.or make excuses. So No more. Now on I will practise. As often as possible
5. Get good at drums; I've been learning the drums for 2 and 1/2 years? and yet I'm not very good! Obviously I need to practise more and I always mean to but I always getdestructedat least 3 times a week excluding youth group 'jam' on Thursdays.
   

Also to help me with these goals directly and indirectly I need to start to go to sleep on time! So I think turn my computer by 10pm at the latest preferably 9.30.

So these are my goals as of now. I'm sure I had more so I may post some more later if the occur to me.

So now, I'm going to go do maths homework. Good luck me!