I was thinking just now, as i walked down the stairs. Music moves my soul, well my mind. Music has the power to make a great day better, a bad day worse, a alright day alrightier. Do you get it?
Some examples, when life and relationships and stuff are going great and you've just spent a great day with that special someone a song like "All the Small things" by blink 182 or "Trucker Hat" by Bowling for Soup make everything more smiley.
On a crap shit day, when its raining outside and in your mind and in your heart. Everythings miserable, relationships not working the way you want them to. "Down" or "Always" by blink 182 and "Where'd you go?" byFort Minor makes it all more that sorta way.
When your lonely and missing someone terribly and you want them to come back to you, from Tahiti songs like; "Hold Me Tight" by the Beatles/Across the Universe (coverers), "I Miss You" by blink 182, "Verona" Elemeno P, heaps of other songs that make you think of them bring those feelings of missing, wanting to be with that person. "I want to hold your hand" by the Beatles. "All I want (Next to You)" the Offspring
I guess what im saying is that music, can connect to your heart and mind your very soul and reflect your mood, amplify it make it bigger, stronger, block out other emotions. Well thats what it does to me, I like songs that say something to me, i dont like pointless crap that doesnt really make sence, that i cant relate to in anyway. Like why would i let someone suck my Lollypop? Why would that appeal to anyone? Ok I admit a few pointless songs songs slip through, songs that on a happy day, make me happy cause they're about a cowardly dog that needs to come and save the day. Everyone needs that Dog to help them out! :P I dont understand some songs, they're good songs, i just cant see how they connect to me, how they can add to me or anything, so they dont make it.
So to finish this all off, what songs amplify your emotions? Bring up certain feelings in you when you hear them or did once upon a time? Im curious to know. If you make a entry on your own blog leave a comment here first so i can check it out, I'd Love to read what songs work for you.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
99% Cacao
I was thinking, if the awnsers not clear? Why? If its a maybe? Why not a yes? How can it be what you say it is when your actions contridict it? Why can someone be fine in your mind one minute, then after stewing over what they say and it all goes down the plug? Why do people do things? Say things? And then keep you at arms length, are they doing it for kicks? Do the understand the power they have?
Man if i wrote a book, i think High Fedality styles the way I'd go... Lots of thinking, saying stuff, but not. Good book btw. . . I think i might read it twice. . . I hope i never end up like Rob. . .
Im starting to think about things I say before I say them with everyone, this scares me. It means i get to consciously decide whether to lie or not. Like my Dad asked me today if i'd heard from the driving instructor, i knew I had. I decided to say no, because i didnt want to talk about it and cause dont really want to learn from the guy. . . Its scary, driving, and the instructors weird. . . I dont know, you know that vibe you get off some people and you just know its going to be awkward, and that theres no way you could be friends? And OMG the cars smells like old people. . . I had a shower last time just to get rid of the smell!!!
ARGH!!!
This weekend is going to suck! Driving lesson, Homework, Frisbee Golf (I know what the hell! and as far as i know only Jacobs going. . . im trying to contain all the excitement thats building up inside me. . . nope cant quite stand it. . .) Playing band in church which is just flipping stressful. . . and frustrating cause no one helps you set up the drumkit and its normally broken cause who ever put it away last time didnt do it properly! then iv got a free sunday afternoon. . . well maybe! Who knows? God knows!!!
Im so tired as well its 1/4 past 10 and my minds hit the fan, and i can barely sit up in my seat!
Pretty colours!
Man if i wrote a book, i think High Fedality styles the way I'd go... Lots of thinking, saying stuff, but not. Good book btw. . . I think i might read it twice. . . I hope i never end up like Rob. . .
Im starting to think about things I say before I say them with everyone, this scares me. It means i get to consciously decide whether to lie or not. Like my Dad asked me today if i'd heard from the driving instructor, i knew I had. I decided to say no, because i didnt want to talk about it and cause dont really want to learn from the guy. . . Its scary, driving, and the instructors weird. . . I dont know, you know that vibe you get off some people and you just know its going to be awkward, and that theres no way you could be friends? And OMG the cars smells like old people. . . I had a shower last time just to get rid of the smell!!!
ARGH!!!
This weekend is going to suck! Driving lesson, Homework, Frisbee Golf (I know what the hell! and as far as i know only Jacobs going. . . im trying to contain all the excitement thats building up inside me. . . nope cant quite stand it. . .) Playing band in church which is just flipping stressful. . . and frustrating cause no one helps you set up the drumkit and its normally broken cause who ever put it away last time didnt do it properly! then iv got a free sunday afternoon. . . well maybe! Who knows? God knows!!!
Im so tired as well its 1/4 past 10 and my minds hit the fan, and i can barely sit up in my seat!
Pretty colours!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
ADDICTED!!!
I AM ADDICTED!!! Its 10:56pm and im tired. For some bizarre reason i cant stop playing stick rpg games!!! http://dan-ball.jp/en/javagame/ranger/
Monday, February 9, 2009
Enjoy the Silence.
ARGHHHH!!!! I dont know, School! Argh its soooo boring! I thought Yah! Friends in my classes. . . It seems everyone feels like me. . . And Just is meh! The people I thought would want to sit with me just plain dont. I dont know why! I dont know how long I can cope! Its all so boring!!! I'm finding subjects hard, like english, People using words to discribe things that I have never heard before!!! Its REDICULOUS!!! and why's it all about Love?!?!
Also, I dont feel very energised at the moment. I just feel so drained, all the time. It sucks, I eat food and that doesnt help. I do things and they dont help! Its like a drained, starving yet not hungry, tired, and bored sort of feeling. My stomuch feels like its knotted all the time, like something bads going to happen. I sometimes dont even want to get out of bed, I dont think i can deal with everything. . . It's to much. I dont feel like im close to anyone really. Well thats a lie, I kind of do. I dont feel like they have time for me anymore. That they want to have that time. Should I need them too?
School is sosososososo boring at the moment. . . Iv been back for two days and i just want to explode in some classes. Would it be pathetic to have a mental health day after only two days back?
I know I'm not physically ill or anything. Cause somethings make me happy, feel normal. Thats whats wrong. I dont feel normal. I dont really feel anything. . . Well I feel somethings. Im not sure if i should feel those things though. Not allowed to... Those feelings arent wanted. Im desperate for something to make everything seem better... What should I do?I dont want to be at home, but I dont know who will do anything with me? If they'll want to! Home's boring. . . All there is MYYEARBOOK, FACEBOOK, BEBO, and MSN. Theres nothing really exciting. Theres they drums but I never feel motivated to go practise or play. They're just something else to do. . . They dont enthrill or inspire. . . I have books to read, sure they're interesting. Mainly I read them cause the people who lent me them want them back. They're not bad books or anything. They're great books! They're just very heavy. . . Involve alot of thought, effort. Thinking, and processing Idea's. I Like them I truely do though. . . What ever happened to happy endings though? And Why are they always at the end? Why cant something good happen at the start of one of the books?
I have goals. I have aims. Im not sure what the motives of them are. Is it for myself? Is it for someone else? Is it to impress someone? Im not sure.
Man I hate cats!!! Why cant they just leave me alone!?!?! AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Also, I dont feel very energised at the moment. I just feel so drained, all the time. It sucks, I eat food and that doesnt help. I do things and they dont help! Its like a drained, starving yet not hungry, tired, and bored sort of feeling. My stomuch feels like its knotted all the time, like something bads going to happen. I sometimes dont even want to get out of bed, I dont think i can deal with everything. . . It's to much. I dont feel like im close to anyone really. Well thats a lie, I kind of do. I dont feel like they have time for me anymore. That they want to have that time. Should I need them too?
School is sosososososo boring at the moment. . . Iv been back for two days and i just want to explode in some classes. Would it be pathetic to have a mental health day after only two days back?
I know I'm not physically ill or anything. Cause somethings make me happy, feel normal. Thats whats wrong. I dont feel normal. I dont really feel anything. . . Well I feel somethings. Im not sure if i should feel those things though. Not allowed to... Those feelings arent wanted. Im desperate for something to make everything seem better... What should I do?I dont want to be at home, but I dont know who will do anything with me? If they'll want to! Home's boring. . . All there is MYYEARBOOK, FACEBOOK, BEBO, and MSN. Theres nothing really exciting. Theres they drums but I never feel motivated to go practise or play. They're just something else to do. . . They dont enthrill or inspire. . . I have books to read, sure they're interesting. Mainly I read them cause the people who lent me them want them back. They're not bad books or anything. They're great books! They're just very heavy. . . Involve alot of thought, effort. Thinking, and processing Idea's. I Like them I truely do though. . . What ever happened to happy endings though? And Why are they always at the end? Why cant something good happen at the start of one of the books?
I have goals. I have aims. Im not sure what the motives of them are. Is it for myself? Is it for someone else? Is it to impress someone? Im not sure.
Man I hate cats!!! Why cant they just leave me alone!?!?! AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Green Eggs and Ham.
Well I'm back, from rainy, dull Invercargill, back from the wedding! Im back in chch where i belong with my friends, the ones I Love. I missed everybody so much!
Argh Weddings are not a fun place to be when your missing someone dear to your heart, especially when you dont know how they feel. It can be stressful. To add to that try sharing a room with my brother! and sitting next to him in the back seat of the car everyday for 5 days and have him try everything to annoy you!
I couldnt sleep most nights, my head was a mess, everything going around, and around, wondering why its the way it is. What to do now, whats the plan Sam? I keep asking myself! Whats is the plan! Is it sink or swim? run or fly? Things have got to change, I know that. I have to change things about myself. Accept that things have changed. It cant go back to the way it was before, nothing can go back to exactly the way it was. It could go back and be better. I want it to all be better. I want to try and put effort in to be better, a better person, a better friend, a better christian. I want to try harder, no i will try harder. Maybe one day, One day I'l get the dream girl.
For now, I'm Sam, thats who I am. I do not like Green Eggs and Ham.
Argh Weddings are not a fun place to be when your missing someone dear to your heart, especially when you dont know how they feel. It can be stressful. To add to that try sharing a room with my brother! and sitting next to him in the back seat of the car everyday for 5 days and have him try everything to annoy you!
I couldnt sleep most nights, my head was a mess, everything going around, and around, wondering why its the way it is. What to do now, whats the plan Sam? I keep asking myself! Whats is the plan! Is it sink or swim? run or fly? Things have got to change, I know that. I have to change things about myself. Accept that things have changed. It cant go back to the way it was before, nothing can go back to exactly the way it was. It could go back and be better. I want it to all be better. I want to try and put effort in to be better, a better person, a better friend, a better christian. I want to try harder, no i will try harder. Maybe one day, One day I'l get the dream girl.
For now, I'm Sam, thats who I am. I do not like Green Eggs and Ham.
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