Everyday

Everyday I make up my mind to do certain things and they never happen.
I regularly, daily even make up my mind to go to bed at a reasonable hour tonight. That rarely happens.
I make up my mind to go for a run, nope that never happens either. I make up my mind to start doing at least one set of sit ups and push ups. Nope no way does that happen.
I make up my mind to do my homework, to study for the exam. Well this doesn't happen at all, and then in the exam I'm sitting there dying and feeling miserable because I know I had the time to learn the content. How I'm to lazy, I should be add up to more than this.
I make up my mind to do something about the misery and loneliness, this I decide can weight, or at least be postponed by worrying about all the other things I should be doing, well could be doing. Of course I'll probably just procrastinate. Waste my time, and continue to waste my life.
I know the solution to everything, It is get the hell of my ass and do something. It doesn't happen. Another day passes and nothing extraordinary happens. No memories are made, not lasting ones anyway. I'm to comfortable in this self inflicted misery. I used to wish for a natural disaster to make everything more exciting. It worked for a while, but I don't know if I will be lucky enough for another one to distract me. Perhaps a smaller scale disaster?
Perhaps not.
On Friday at the movies when I was watching Tomorrow When the War began I was thinking the whole time WOW. What an adventure. Not OMG there family, pets, friends, country has been taken over, they must be terrified. No I thought, that would be such an adventure. A perfect distraction from everything else. . .

Graph Lack of Sleep and it's relationships

I'm not sure if you can see my graph but its something I've been thinking about recently, after me not getting enough sleep then the amount of dumb/stupid/rude/and things that make me sound like a dick, thought afterwards "WHAT THE HELL SAM! YOU IDIOT".
I don't like saying those things, and obviously I'm not saying I'm blaming them on a lack of sleep.
I just think there maybe some sort of relationship there, and if there is I need to get more sleep to hopefully sort myself out.

I'm sick of feeling constantly drained, cause due to lack of sleep and other things, that's how I feel at the moment. I need to sort this out. I have found that exercise seems to boast my mood for a while, but later it just returns to a flat drained place. Early night for me tonight I guess!