Everymorning

Everymorning for the last few weeks I've been waking up before my alarm. Somedays I've managed to slip back into sleep and pass right through my alarm again. But for the last week on days when I can sleep in I've been finding it impossible. Thoughts goinng though my head, it's wierd I'm not properly awake because I think in ryhme, who does that?

I come up with elaboate poems full of vesus of how I feel and whats going on. How crazy everything is how my heart and my head can't agree and how the heart is constantly hurting. I'm not sure if I should bore the world with my awful poetry and rhymes.

Here are some lyric's that I cannot get out of my head, they're from Nathan Kings Album the crowd. Note these are only a few of the songs that are stuck in my head constantly at the moment.

Wake Up

This could be the night
I could say a few words and make things right
Tap into your sympathy?
I've heard it on the wind
like a hurricane lies near blowing in
And some of them were bound fo you

But I feel aright and I don't know why
Cause I'm sick inside of it all

If you wake up now you can save us all
And this whole bad dream will crumble and fall
Someone pinch me now cause its out of control

I've heard it all before
It's a good thing I don't take take it no more me
When a Billion people count on me
And I see it in your eyes
but with both hands tied how are you going to fight?
And is this how it's gonna be?

If you wake up now you can save us all
And this whole bad dream will crumble and fall
Someone pinch me now cause its out of control

Make it up to them and me
With the line in the sand
Your little chance that they're meant to see

But it I feel alright
and I don't know why
If you wake up now you can save us all
And this whole bad dream will crumble and fall
Someone pinch me now cause its out of control

Someone pinch me now,
Someone pinch me now,

Never Too Late

I'm caught in the middle now
When I should have gone around
You'd have thought I could read the signs
or put up some kind of fight
Now I can't go left or right
No I can't go left or right

I'm trapped in a shrinking room
Is it curtains for me soon?
When the doors locked I know you said;
Take the window out instead
But I struggle even then

But I know it's never too late at all.
Too late at all
Even when it gets too close to call,
It's never too late at all

I'm stuck in a leaking boat with this message that I wrote
Throw a bottle in the sea
maybe you'll come back to me
And this won't stay just a dream
No it won't stay just a dream

Cos I know its never too late at all.
too late at all
Even when it gets too close to call,
It's never too late at all

So help me, the waters raising
and I'm desperate to breathe

I thought I could hear you now
maybe I should have hung around
But my head got the best of me
Still I never could believe
It's too late now
Too late now
Even when it gets too close to call,
It's never too late at all

Not Enough

Here it is the hardest part
where you say 'no' and my tears start
How did this thing not leave the ground
If we weren't that high, why am I so far down

Now it's gone
Love in an instant is gone
Now its hard to believe for so long
That we just couldn't see what we'd done

So I'll hide my love fo you a mile underground
But it's not enough, you just dig it up
And how am I supposed to tunnel my way out
When it's not enough, but I can't give up

Run with me down endless streets
Untie these hands, unbind these feet
with all the symtoms of a fool
But with all the couage of one too

I'd never leave you now
This love was cut and dried
Now all I can do is try
To make you believe me

The Mystery

Your Love is a gallery, and I'm hung on the wall
Portaits of a symphony, and I'm one of the chords

Your love's an orginal, one of a kind
Unfolding in front of me, and I'm part of the design

Your love is a remedy, for all I feel inside
And I know who I'm supposed to be
but it's taking a while

I'm part of the mystery, kept off to oneside
Not making apoligies, for shining a light

Is it hard to believe in someone like me?
Is it hard to rely on what you can't see?
Is it hard to relate to what you're never known?
Is it hard to remain without letting go?

I want to stand where tha world can't hide
And look on the stage where we live and die
I want to see all the plans you used
And make sense of the path I choose

I want to run with the end in mind
Looking ahead at the final prize
I want to run and cross the line
Having fought for whats right.

The next song is my favourite it is also the song that was played on the radio, but I think its awesomely cute and romantic, hopeful.

Eyes For You

I'm looking for familar
Looking for a way back home
Got a feeling you'll be waiting
Guessing that I've seen it all

Seems I've been away forever
Trying to find where I belong
When the awnser has always been
Here in you arms

Because I only have eyes for you
Because I only have eyes for you

Now I'm staring at the ceiling
Trying to lose my tendancy
To forget about the promises
That you said to me

And in spite of all the times
It seemed I could be getting lost
You were less than a breath away
At the most

Because I only have eyes for you
Because I only have eyes for you
Because I only have eyes for you
for you
for you

Now I'm looking at familar
Looking at the way back home
Got a feeling you'll be waiting
Now I've seen it all.

Wouldn't those lyric's being said to you just be everything you want to hear from your partner?

Runaway

I'd run away with you tonight
I'd take a boat and sail
until we saw the light
But somehow I don't think we'll go
The tide has turned and theres so
much that we don't know

Tell me how can I
Have fallen from this high
and managed to survive
and tell me why did we never go,
I swear I don't know you would never tell

I'd run away with you today
I'd steal a car and choose the longest highway
But somehow I don't think we'd last
Theres to much hurt and too much traffic in our path

Tell me how can I
Have fallen from this high
and managed to survive
and tell me why did we never go,
I swear I don't know you would never tell

It used to be so right,
Like nothing could go wrong,
It used to feel so good, I never felt so strong
But now I fall apart a little every day
And you won't let me run away

Tell me how can I
Have fallen from this high
and managed to survive
and tell me why did we never go,
I swear I don't know you would never tell

Tell me how can it be that I
Have fallen from this high
and managed to survive

I'd run away with you tonight
we could up and leave before the morning light
But somehow I don't think we'll go
cause theres a new plan in my soul

I retract my statement about the previous song being my favourite, at the moment its this one because it seems to capture so much of my current emotion. With a few adjustments it could some up all of how I'm feeling. Like the traffic in our path to past*. Although it's 'Never Too late' and the final line new plan in my soul to our souls*. Then the song would be a pretty accurate soundtrack to my feelings at the moment. It's funny when i first heard this song all I could think about was packing up my car, getting food supplies and offering an escape, disappearing a certain person's family batch for a few days. Dreams are only dreams for a reason though. They only exsist in our own worlds; and rarely do they become reality.

Christmas dinner?!

Hello there peoples, and persons!

Well today was apparently christmas dinner. Its weird cause its not even december yet. But we still had a christmas dinner. With all the cousins that like in chch and Nana. It was mildly not boring. It meant i had to get up by like 12 though. When my cousins started to arrive!

We played Halo2 and ate food. That was that not at all entirely exciting at all! But what is? Everythings just painful and slow, and boring.

Well this was a pointlessly stupid entry. . .

Yes quite.

No more exams!

I feel so exhusted. I suppose bing up at 11pm doesnt help me much though. I feel so tired after exam's.
Lol now continueing writing this entry at 12pm :P

Well life, is as it is! Exam's are over, school is over! Im trying to be busy. but old habits are kicking in, making sorta plans then my brain kinda panic's and i try and weasel my way out of them. Maybe i am a weasel? I dont want to be a weasel, they're ugly. And evil like the ones in Redwall! Great books btw just dont match with each other which annoys me!

Well im gonna go night nights now. . . I miss how things used to be. I kinda miss school, sad huh? It was so easy though, get up do this be here at this time and do that. Sure it was boring but it was easy. . . and i saw everyone. Oh well il have to make an effort. Im going to try and get fit these holidays! :) It should be fun, and exhusting. . . Il have to be more selfdisiplined than i was this morning though. I woke up thought i should go for a run. Thought "Stuff it rolled over and went back to sleep. Woke up again then went and had a shower and computered/weights/push ups for and hour before having milo cereal for breakfast.

I then kinda studied. Then i got Mcdonalds on the way to school for my exam said Hi to Nick, Bob and Jacob. Then did the exam. Got annoyed and spent like an hour trying to make it balance. Stupid thing! Turned out it didnt need to balance. . . which makes it incredibly GAY!!! Then did the whole youth group thing. . . It was boring except i volunteered to ask the questions to the leaders. Man it's wierd calling my Dad "Chris". He's never been Chris to me, its just so different...

Anyways im going to go and sleep now!