Excitement

I miss the little things that used to excite me, the text you get from someone, anyone, saying hey, or that special someone that let you know they were thinking of you. The thrill of the kiss, the happpiness that blurred your head for the rest of the day. The warmth of the hug. The sound of the voice on the other end of the phone when they ring you. The excitement of it all. I miss it.

Time to find something else, perhaps I should listen to my 4.20 wake up calls and take up drugs? Just an Idea!

A better one would be convince my parents I should get a puppy, I'd Love a puppy. My family has lots of pets but none of them have been mine since the last lambs we had and they were that cool. Tastey though.

Green Eggs and Ham.

Well I'm back, from rainy, dull Invercargill, back from the wedding! Im back in chch where i belong with my friends, the ones I Love. I missed everybody so much!

Argh Weddings are not a fun place to be when your missing someone dear to your heart, especially when you dont know how they feel. It can be stressful. To add to that try sharing a room with my brother! and sitting next to him in the back seat of the car everyday for 5 days and have him try everything to annoy you!

I couldnt sleep most nights, my head was a mess, everything going around, and around, wondering why its the way it is. What to do now, whats the plan Sam? I keep asking myself! Whats is the plan! Is it sink or swim? run or fly? Things have got to change, I know that. I have to change things about myself. Accept that things have changed. It cant go back to the way it was before, nothing can go back to exactly the way it was. It could go back and be better. I want it to all be better. I want to try and put effort in to be better, a better person, a better friend, a better christian. I want to try harder, no i will try harder. Maybe one day, One day I'l get the dream girl.

For now, I'm Sam, thats who I am. I do not like Green Eggs and Ham.