My holidays!

I have had a great break from school, I'm exhausted though, I need a long weekend or something to recover!In the first week I went on a 3 day tramp, I worked two days and went too a BBQ.
The tramp was amazing lots of people from school, exploring a beautiful part of Gods creation with a great bunch of people. hanging out, playing cards, chatting and of course tramping!

Work was boring I got to do a stock take! Whoop! The vain of any sane persons existence. If going to university can do one thing I pray that it will get me a job where I WONT have to stock take, ever.
The BBQ was an interesting experience lots of school people but most of them younger than me and a bit odd and a few interesting people from throughout Christchurch. Great fun hanging out and getting to know people who I've known by sight but never ever talked to much.

The next week was pretty much all Kids Camp, which I went to after an awesome Gigglepop gig in which Jonny K dropped his pick and ended up screwing up his hand and covering his bass in blood! The concert was great although people and some of there actions made me feel first a bit sad and then later a tad lonely which was a bit sucky and even now its making my tummy knot thinking about it now (that could just be the sad british pop music im listening too atm. . .), but from then on it was on to kids camp!
Which was awesome, I got to kinda be the senior leader in a cabin with my new friend Reuben Posthuma, who was on his first camp. Well senior a bit of a push when it was only my second camp but hey that's one more than Reuben! :P We got an awesome cabin with some really cool kids in it and we almost won points a few times which was great cause last camp my cabin failed at points the whole camp! I can't wait for January camp now! It'l be great!!!
Before kids camp started Steven, Reuben and I went for an awesome geocaching adventure although it ended up being fruitless it was a great way to start a camp and the sunrise was pretty spectacular.To top off my holidays I went on a geocaching afternoon with Nick and we mopped up 6 caches around the university which was a great way to spend a Sunday afternoon until the weather packed in!
I truly am blessed to have such great opportunities and friends!

I Love them all! :)

My Plans

Last day of my holidays, before going to school for my second to last term ever. Scary when I think of it like that. Over these holidays and the weeks before it I have made some major decisions. I'm pretty happy about them. I know roughly have a 10yr plan. Not sure how that will fan out seeing as I can't keep with 1 month plans, or even plans I make for the morning!

The plan as it stands is, Finish school. Work hard in chemistry, work harder in economic's star course to bring my pass marks up to >80% (currently they're probably in late 60's early 70's).
Year 1 Go to university. Most likely Otago.
Year 1-6 Work hard. Become a doctor.
Year 7 Do my elective overseas somewhere that would need a doctor, somewhere I probably would never get the chance to work or go.
Year 7-8 Locum for a while. (Provided I don't get tied down anywhere) Pay of student loans, etc and save money.
Year 9-10 Travel the world see everything that there is to see with the money I have saved, hopefully may have found somewhere I want to live by the end of it.

As of right now that is how my 10 year plan stands. I think the possible beauty of this plan is that although it has some fixed routes, it is open for so much deviation. So many forseeable and unforseeable things could come along, leave, dance about, mess things around, and the bare bones of this plan would remain unchanged.
I can see the genius of finishing university before I explore the world, having money would mean I could explore more places, for longer, have a much wider experience and be a lot more able to cope with a disaster. Than say I went next year. Of course I am somewhat lucky having made a decision about what I want to do.

The other part I like about my plans, is that they are mine. I have come up with them for the most part. I have talked about them with my parents, my Oma some people from church various family friends. They all agree that I can achieve them which is a lot more encouraging than the laughs of the girl from school, which when I heard them cut deep. I thought friends are supposed to support each others dreams, not laugh at them. Perhaps she was just teasing, or thought I wasn't being serious. Who knows, does it really matter anymore? No.

I am an Individual, I can forge my own path in this world. I can do it with some people or without them. The only person that truely matters in my lifes plans anymore is me.
Love is a mutt from hell that I can't live without but I'm sure I can cope without if need be.

This plan is mine, for my life. I'm certain it is the first plan that I have had in atleast 4 and a half years, that is just for me. Every other one has involved someone else, been for them to succeed. Now I can make my own plans. I don't have to concern myself with her dreams, I can begin to have my own again. Now they can be mine, rather than my dreams being for her dreams to succeed. So thank you to her, and I hope all her dreams become true.

PS The picture is just of some of the things I found in my car today when I was cleaning it, thought I'd blog about them but the blog panned out differently. :)

What the hell is going on?!

Im so confused. Why is everything so confusing? I feel something on day, the next day its just worse. I can't stop feeling the way i do. Im not a switch.

Lol I just got that song in my head

"I'll be the switch she turns on, She'll be mine too, I'll get off, I'll be the fuse that she blows, And

even with the lights out we'll glow"

Anyway, it sucks this feeling, i dont know what to do. I know what i want. The problem is its all dependent. I can't really do anything to change the outcome. This grizzling and moaning wont help me though. So il stop.

"Smile for a while and lets be Jolly, Life shouldnt be so meloncholy"

SO!!!

How was you day? I had Bob and Jacob come over and stay the only problem with the plan that we'd study was the study part. We stayed up late and watched Amazing Grace and Donny Darko. Well i didnt watch Donny Darko, i dont really enjoy that movie its got to many little storylines in it, but the over all story is far to WTF!?! Amazing Grace was a cool movie though. I enjoyed it. William Wilberforce felt all these horrible emotions and it was interesting, and understandable.

You know what i like about my blog? I can use as many "and"s in my sentence and know one can stop me! Muhuhahaha and and and and and and and anyway!

It was a good movie, we had a lack of fizzy and chips though. . . So we wont be getting fat. xD We sleept in til like 10.30 which was bad for Bob who's been await being quiet for 3hours by the time i awoke! :P I woke up and he was busy stuying! Lol he probly did more study than any of us in that 3hrs even though he confessed he probly only spent half that time studying (translation 30mins :P )

After breaky and stuff we went to study! And me being such a good boy was on Myyearbook and Bob asked me what i was studying so i truthfully awnsered Linda, a random i was looking at the profile of because id agreed with a comment she'd made on a mag so i had to Hi-5 her! Well that was probly the highlight of my day. . . Man im boring! Well i guessing studying doesnt do much good to the exciting-ness!

"They say that absence makes the heart grow founder, but i doubt it, I really doubt it."

Last exam tomorrow! So then i'l be free!!! So that will be sweet as! :) Il be able to do what ever i

like! And these holidays im gonna try and be a real social bunny i do believe! So if your reading this and I know who you are! Lets do something! lets make these holidays EPIC!